January 24, 2012 – I MADE IT! Ten years from now I can just picture myself laughing, in reflection: “Remember the time when I raced the entire Tour de Ski with a broken wrist after falling on Christmas Day?!”
I made it to the top of the Alpes Cermis! Yehaw! © courtesy Holly Brooks
Teammates and finishers! Me, Kikkan & Liz © courtesy Holly Brooks
I’ve only been here a few hours but it was incredible to sleep in & walk downstairs and make what I want for breakfast, when I want it. When opening their cupboards I find familiar things like Life Cereal, Organic Valley Milk & El Paso Taco Shells. This funny mixture of Italian and American is a result of Kathy’s job working as a school nurse on the Aviano Military Base. They have access to the commissary grocery store where I suppose, they feel the need to offer American things to the Americans working here.
Here is the "traffic circle" in the small town that they live in.... while they've been going non stop since moving here, the pace of Italian life is slow - which is exactly what I need right now.... © courtesy Holly Brooks
It’s been fun to bit** about the aspects of Europe that are tough – for example, the inability to get anything done. Here in Italy everything is “Domani, Domani” which means, “tomorrow, tomorrow!” When living life on the road (such as I am) you must become accustomed to a lack of productivity. For example, it may take all flipping day to figure out how and where to do a load of laundry. Back home in the states, laundry would be one of 101 things you might get done any given day. They can relate to bad Internet, the ten hour time difference, and the difficulty of staying in touch with loved ones back at home.
Here I am with Kathy on a walk..... mandatory machiatto stop along the way.... © courtesy Holly Brooks
Kathy & Bill 🙂 © courtesy Holly Brooks
Kathy is the perfect mixture of mom and friend.... it's so nice to be spending some time with people from home. This night we had Kathy homemade ravioli for dinner - each ravioli made with loving care! © courtesy Holly Brooks
Finishing the Tour, and reaching the top of the Alpes Cermis with a bib on was a huge goal of mine. I’m not going to lie. It was really, really tough but not as tough as dropping out would have been for me. A friend sent Rob an email telling him about a German saying that basically says, the pain of racing is temporary and the pain of quitting lasts forever. I agree whole heartily with this statement and it became somewhat of a mantra for me during the 11- day tour.
"Cheers to finishing!" © courtesy Holly Brooks
Just a sampling of the food they had in the VIP tent at the top of the Alpes Cermis! © courtesy Holly Brooks
Devon Kershaw powering up the last part of the climb - in places, the grade was 28% which required everyone, even the top men to "granny skate." © courtesy Holly Brooks
© courtesy Holly Brooks
This picture doesn’t quite do my legs justice but needless to say, they were bruised. Liz said I had “alpine bruises!”
Some days I would look at the results, and some days I would simply walk away from the finish line, choosing to reflect on my race via technique, feeling, and subjective analysis. The objective number, place, and time back doesn’t always help. I looked at each race as a learning opportunity. I learned a ton about new venues, new formats, and my competitors. Each time someone passed me I would take a mental note of what they were doing differently. The last venue, at Val di Fiemme, is also the site of the 2013 World Championships. While I’m not particularly proud of my individual performance there, I have now raced the course where a new World Champion will be named next year. I now have an intimate and personal knowledge of the hills and how to prepare to take them on next winter.
Petter was tired at the end of the climb.... I have to admit, it was fun watching Hellner pass him! © courtesy Holly Brooks
Dario, the eventual men's winner has quite the fan club that travels from venue to venue. Once the men's race was done his fans marched up the race tracks playing gigantic swiss bells in celebration! © courtesy Holly Brooks
Thanks to Zach Caldwell for helping me with my skis during the Tour © courtesy Holly Brooks
So. I am more than my results and so are my teammates. We are human and not everything is perfect all the time.
Second, he sent me a link to a speech given by John Wooden, perhaps the most articulate 92 year old on the face of the planet. (Wooden is a retired UCLA basketball coach and professor.) In his speech, Wooden outlines his version of success which he pointedly admits is much different than the Mariam Webster Dictionary definition:
I thought about that for quite a spell, and I wanted to come up with my own definition. I thought that might help. And I knew how Mr. Webster defined it: as the accumulation of material possessions or the attainment of a position of power or prestige, or something of that sort — worthy accomplishments perhaps, but in my opinion not necessarily indicative of success. So I wanted to come up with something of my own.
And I recalled — I was raised on a small farm in Southern Indiana and Dad tried to teach me and my brothers that you should never try to be better than someone else. I’m sure at the time he did that, I didn’t — it didn’t — well, somewhere, I guess in the hidden recesses of mind, it popped out years later.Never try to be better than someone else, always learn from others. Never cease trying to be the best you can be — that’s under your control. If you get too engrossed and involved and concerned in regard to the things over which you have no control, it will adversely affect the things over which you have control.
From those things, and one other perhaps, I coined my own definition of success, which is: peace of mind attained only through self-satisfaction in knowing you made the effort to do the best of which you’re capable. I believe that’s true. If you make the effort to do the best of which you’re capable, to try and improve the situation that exists for you, I think that’s success. And I don’t think others can judge that. I think it’s like character and reputation. Your reputation is what you are perceived to be; your character is what you really are. And I think that character is much more important than what you are perceived to be. You’d hope they’d both be good,but they won’t necessarily be the same. Well, that was my idea that I was going to try to get across to the youngsters.
This notion became my second mantra of the Tour. My goal was to be the best and do the best that I could do, without comparing myself to others. Now this is much, much harder than it sounds because like I said before, the essence of sports in many people’s mind is what page your name falls on for results; or what step of the podium you stand on. However, without doing better than some of my competitors, I wouldn’t be here in Europe, having the opportunities that I’ve had. Sports aren’t a big “Kumbaya” where everyone holds hands and tries to cross the finish line for a tie – not even in the slightest. The difference is, however, that when you focus on having a good race for yourself, and do the best that you can do, the results and improvement will come. I believe what John Wooden is saying is that if you focus on what others are doing, rather than trying to improve your own “game” it will work against those measures of success. Instead, if you focus on improving your striding, or your mental game during races, the good results will fall in your lap. Not without effort, of course, but the point being, focus on what you can do, rather than being upset that you cannot do what others have done.
In my specific case moving forward, I need not focus on the races that I’m missing and the World Cup points that my competitors are accumulating but rather, what kind of productive PT can I do for my wrist to heel my injury & how I can stay in shape while doing so.
What is my plan now? My plan consists of skipping the next couple race weekends. As much as it pains me to opt out of racing opportunities, I know the priority needs to be on getting better; on healing. A couple weeks ago I had a quote about how every single second in a race is important; that even wiping the snot off your face could cost a place on the results sheet. The reality is, every decrement in performance, whether it’s 1% or 10% will result in a quick slip down the results list. Therefore, my plan is to skip the sprints in Milan this weekend, the classic double header in Oteppa, Estonia next weekend, and the city sprint in Moscow. Most likely, my next world cup starts will be in early February in Rybinsk, Russia. There is a 10k mass start skate race and a 15k pursuit. Following Russia I hope to race in the Czech Republic & Poland as well.
Until later & thanks so much for all the support!
Love,
Holly 🙂
PS. I had one day after the Tour to spend with Rob before his departure. Considering I am here in Europe November – March it’s tough missing loved ones. My mom actually inspired and treated us to this wonderful “date.” We took the gondola up Latemar, a big ski area and took the Alpine slide, had lunch, etc. We were celebrating New Years, Valentine’s Day & his birthday since I won’t see him again until spring 🙁
(Thanks Mom!)
Going up the Alpine Slide © courtesy Holly Brooks
Rob with our Italian Pizza © courtesy Holly Brooks
Sitting in front of the Dolomites © courtesy Holly Brooks